I found myself recently thinking about how painful it must have been to feel like my Love had to console me when I was scared about possibly being pregnant, when all long, deep down inside, that’s what he truly wanted. It hurts so much to see that now. I wish this could have been addressed… Continue reading Whoa! Having counseling when it comes to wanting kids?
Doing my homework! Part 1
Ok, so I bought a book that will help me with figuring out relationship stuff. They spoon-feed me the lessons daily. I think this a good thing. It forces me to slow down and reflect. Anyway, I am submitting the answers to my homework here. Maybe this might help somebody else going through a breakup… Continue reading Doing my homework! Part 1
Money does have more value when you spend it for the right reasons
As I ate a sandwich at work today…I thought about my Love. How he taught me how to handle my knife and fork, as I eat. How he thought it was cute how I’d get food on my face by accident sometimes. The bread had a nice crunch to it, and it made me think… Continue reading Money does have more value when you spend it for the right reasons
Why are you thinking about your ex?
I was watching a video and they said “control is an illusion” and that control being lost is a factor. I wonder what that means…from the ex standpoint. I had no idea relationships were so much about push and pulling each other. I keep hearing references over how romance and dating is all about chasing.… Continue reading Why are you thinking about your ex?
Because you’re a crazy person right now
Somebody said that about me. Well, not directly, but it still applies. I talked with a therapist today about myself. Thank goodness for Maven Clinic! It’s a women-only resource for women to be able to see doctors. (I only knew about it by accident as an online user tester.) I wish I could spread the… Continue reading Because you’re a crazy person right now
Heartbroken over what-if
Outside were two fire trucks, and ambulance, sirens going off, and children screaming. And all I’m doing is sitting sadly with my cheesecake (that is already completely gone now), chewing slowly. If I actually lived in this apartment complex, this would be terrifying. But I don’t, so I feel numb instead. The memory of the… Continue reading Heartbroken over what-if
Wishing to sleep in the same bed
One of the most important things to me about being with my Love was to being allowed to sleep in the same bed. When that ended, I was super upset and it really shattered my world. It's almost easier to stay away completely, rather than sleep one room away. I still think about it even… Continue reading Wishing to sleep in the same bed
Can you HEAR me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2e1VtTkuZEw I have been guilty of listening to this very beautiful, but sad song WAY TOO MUCH. But it was after about listen #30 of hearing this song, that I realized a very interesting twist. Sometimes the female singer says, "Can you HEAR me" instead of "Can you HEAL me". She also repeats this… Continue reading Can you HEAR me
Learn to love yourself?
The words still ring through my ears and hurt like acid on the eyes: my Love has told me before that he wants me to love myself first (or maybe more, or something like that) before I can have his love. I find this to be a very difficult idea. How can I do that… Continue reading Learn to love yourself?
Rules for…fair fighting?
https://youtu.be/t2bZTePuHb0 I found this video that does an excellent job defining how to demonstrate respect in a relationship. But they define it in the sense of fighting. Not quite the angle for handling a discussion that I would have expected! But interestingly enough, these principles date back to the 70’s, so rest assured, they have… Continue reading Rules for…fair fighting?
Sango and Miroku 