I have been trying really hard to be low maintenance. I insist that I do not need to have the car, so that my Love can be as free as he likes. I don’t think I am letting him walk all over me for it. I am being nice about it. Since we are living… Continue reading Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
I sold (almost) my entire music collection
I cannot put my finger on it, as to exactly why, but I feel like I have been hated for liking music. Sure, I normally feel like a complete nut every time I reference music into everything ever. I think it was after my Love even recently showed absolute disdain to want to share some… Continue reading I sold (almost) my entire music collection
Runaway, runaway, runaway…
"These lonely games with greedy eyes…I need a place where I can hide…” Today was super stressful in that everything had time deadlines and had to happen in a certain order. And my worst fear was washing myself. I have this awful fear of washing. I don’t know, maybe it’s because of my childhood, but… Continue reading Runaway, runaway, runaway…
Delivery of Groceries…the key to a happy mom?
Yesterday I tried grocery delivery through Instacart. I am determined to manage without a car, yet also learn how to operate like this because that’s how I would get groceries if I had a baby. It worked well. If I can do it in a scary Airbnb, then I can totally do this anywhere! Somehow… Continue reading Delivery of Groceries…the key to a happy mom?
How to “Find Yourself” and My Adventures in Art
I tried writing a heartfelt letter to my Love after watching an inspiring video about finding oneself. I went a little crazy with the YouTube videos last night in general, but this one stood out like no other: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xjq_ow5DrWY After watching it (mostly with the intention that it would actually help my Love and not… Continue reading How to “Find Yourself” and My Adventures in Art
Why does he want to take off his wedding ring?
If it’s just a separation…Then why does he say he might take off his wedding ring? I just don’t get it. I thought we were married, but just not physically together. I just don’t understand this stuff. It really drives me crazy. What’s even more scary is that everybody ever has an opinion as to… Continue reading Why does he want to take off his wedding ring?
The sight of a happy family
At work today I saw a mom wanting to take a family picture. Before, I would have probably rolled my eyes at this. Now I feel really sad. I wanted to cry. I wish my Love would let me back into his family. They will be visiting for Christmas soon and even worse - I… Continue reading The sight of a happy family
Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
I became an emotional monster these past few days. Little did I know, it was because I was about to have a period. At 93 pounds, I really thought that was not going to happen. And talking about periods…this something I never thought I would openly mention at all, no less blog about. (I miss… Continue reading Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
Learning how to talk
I have been trying to find information on how to communicate better. It’s easy to see those moments when things go bad, but harder to recognize how to avoid/fix them. Originally I found a helpful video by Mark Rosenfeld on communication: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GObjsJeqyCw I think he really nails it how conversations can run into a wall… Continue reading Learning how to talk
Inuyasha Episode 5!
This was totally an episode that is all about mothers. I never realized I could learn so much from watching Inuyasha when it comes to coping with my difficulties. I found it interesting that even the “tough-guy” Inuyasha clearly had a soft spot for his mother. And they selected the scene with Kagome’s mother offering… Continue reading Inuyasha Episode 5!
Sango and Miroku 