My coworker didn’t see it as strange, but it was a first for me to even be light-hearted about just even the thought of being pregnant. Before, that would have been seen as really bad news for me. I didn’t even want to dare say anything on such a dark topic. While I don’t think… Continue reading Jokes about being pregnant…for the first time
This past week has been a busy one!
I spent every single day trying to find ways to improve the home. Just those little sort of things that make one a little happier when they are better. But this awful knot in my stomach, this bad feeling, this little voice keeps whispering in my head dark thoughts… Oh, please don’t drop me home… Continue reading This past week has been a busy one!
Respect versus Trust
While I was watching another fabulous Mark Rosenfeld YouTube video, he talked about how respect and trust seem to go hand-in-hand. Trust is something I have been desperately trying to reform, so this video really got my attention. He went over the proper means of communicating respect as the first point: usually communication involves talking,… Continue reading Respect versus Trust
“No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Interestingly enough, I saw it pointed out in a video that sometimes couples fight and get into more disagreements more when they do care passionately about certain matters. Basically, they are committed to sticking to the things that matter and refuse to back down on them. I should have noticed when it was happening about… Continue reading “No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Inuyasha – Episode 2!
It’s weird how I remember thinking the crows in this episode were soooo scary. Life has a way of putting things in perspective. Losing love is much worse than any beast. Though it is funny how the crows attack human hearts. It is a subtle reminder that if we lose our heart we lose ourselves.… Continue reading Inuyasha – Episode 2!
Inuyasha – Episode 1!
I guess after all this talk about the characters from Inuyasha, I decided to rewatch the show. It is hard to believe it has been 7 years since then. Having a good background of what the show is about, I easily jumped in to watch it. But by not entirely remembering the entire story, I… Continue reading Inuyasha – Episode 1!
Better Place – Rachel Platten
My ears seem to notice all sad music no matter where I go now. I don’t even have to hear the lyrics. I sense it immediately like a sixth sense. But while I was at Fed Ex today, I heard this one and it spoke volumes to me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvI9PuGorwI This song title is especially comforting… Continue reading Better Place – Rachel Platten
Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
I originally started this diary with the hopes to share my experiences with others. Maybe somebody else can relate with me, or maybe I can reassure somebody else that they are not alone. I do like to help others. But yes, I am here because I need help. I am struggling to be ok. But… Continue reading Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
How do you prove a change from within?
Friday was a hard day. My friend at work saw something in me ripping me apart from the inside so much, that she decided to pull me aside for a smoke break. She wanted to know what left me so at unease and outright asked me. I told her that I didn't feel like anyone… Continue reading How do you prove a change from within?
The advice to smile: corny but true
Ever heard the advice to simply smile more to be happy? Sometimes that can feel near impossible to do. But I am starting to think, especially after not smiling for so long, that smiles are something that we do exclusively for others. Here's why: a smile puts someone else at ease. They see it and… Continue reading The advice to smile: corny but true
Sango and Miroku 