"Let the mind shut up, and the heart do the rest" I have been getting ready to give my Love a gift of an album of music created by the great "Hojo", aka Howard Jones. I think my Love has been wanting to learn more about himself, who he is, and what that means for… Continue reading Knowing yourself vs. finding yourself
“You’re a prize too”, but be grateful for that person you have
"You're a prize too". This was a concept really emphasized over and over in Mark Rosenfeld's videos. But he also emphasizes that we should treat one another in a relationship as if they might let go of you at any time. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STcL54V40nM Once in a relationship, it is easy to take the other person for… Continue reading “You’re a prize too”, but be grateful for that person you have
Looking back on conversations that didn’t go well
It’s weird how it takes time for things to sink in. And yet other things can be catalysts for immediate disaster. 2 weeks ago, I was in conversations that were so hot and so fueled with emotion, I ended up being angry and crying. Yet now I cannot even remember the slightest as to what… Continue reading Looking back on conversations that didn’t go well
Being more positive means realizing that I was trusted…
In my efforts to change myself, I have decided to try to stay more focused on the positive. Yesterday night, I also found a video that featured a few pros of being a stepmom. Since my previous attitude and mindset has been so harmful and poisonous, I knew that I needed to watch this video.… Continue reading Being more positive means realizing that I was trusted…
Hi, I have step-kids!
So something happened a few days ago was a big first step for me. When I texted a friend about my Thanksgiving plans, I told her that I was planning to buy some treats "for my kids”. This was literally the first time I have said something like that in the 7 years that I… Continue reading Hi, I have step-kids!
If I ever hope to be a mother…
I will have to prove myself as trustworthy and strong enough physically and mentally to make an ideal partner first. Yesterday was a scary day, but I made it! My focus was a bit everywhere, but so was I. Checking into my first airbnb alone was scary, but everything went really smoothly. Later I found… Continue reading If I ever hope to be a mother…
The Journey Begins
Since turning 35, I have had to face some harsh realities about myself as a human being. This is a diary about recovery, hopes, and dreams. Years ago, I remember my Love being very excited about this picture. Now I finally understand why. He actually never saw the series with me, but I found that… Continue reading The Journey Begins
Sango and Miroku 