https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xpIrfzZ_6A I think this video does a really good job of showing the concept of pulling away and how feelings of anger can arise. I really recommend it, because it shows how difficult it can be for people to see beyond hurt sometimes. Understanding the perspective of others can make the world of a difference!… Continue reading Trust, how to reconcile, and meditation exercise
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Inuyasha Episode 13
This episode really stood out to me the first time I saw it. Back then, I had not become familiar with falling in love, but I was familiar with being a good employee and that feeling of betrayal from the spider demon’s deception to the girl really resonated with me. Why? It was… Continue reading Inuyasha Episode 13
Whoa! Having counseling when it comes to wanting kids?
I found myself recently thinking about how painful it must have been to feel like my Love had to console me when I was scared about possibly being pregnant, when all long, deep down inside, that’s what he truly wanted. It hurts so much to see that now. I wish this could have been addressed… Continue reading Whoa! Having counseling when it comes to wanting kids?
Heartbroken over what-if
Outside were two fire trucks, and ambulance, sirens going off, and children screaming. And all I’m doing is sitting sadly with my cheesecake (that is already completely gone now), chewing slowly. If I actually lived in this apartment complex, this would be terrifying. But I don’t, so I feel numb instead. The memory of the… Continue reading Heartbroken over what-if
Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
I have been trying really hard to be low maintenance. I insist that I do not need to have the car, so that my Love can be as free as he likes. I don’t think I am letting him walk all over me for it. I am being nice about it. Since we are living… Continue reading Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
The sight of a happy family
At work today I saw a mom wanting to take a family picture. Before, I would have probably rolled my eyes at this. Now I feel really sad. I wanted to cry. I wish my Love would let me back into his family. They will be visiting for Christmas soon and even worse - I… Continue reading The sight of a happy family
This past week has been a busy one!
I spent every single day trying to find ways to improve the home. Just those little sort of things that make one a little happier when they are better. But this awful knot in my stomach, this bad feeling, this little voice keeps whispering in my head dark thoughts… Oh, please don’t drop me home… Continue reading This past week has been a busy one!
Respect versus Trust
While I was watching another fabulous Mark Rosenfeld YouTube video, he talked about how respect and trust seem to go hand-in-hand. Trust is something I have been desperately trying to reform, so this video really got my attention. He went over the proper means of communicating respect as the first point: usually communication involves talking,… Continue reading Respect versus Trust
Sango and Miroku 