Something that I keep worrying about is how I keep being given tiny clues as to what went wrong to cause the separation and they keep piling up as slightly new different ones each time. Obviously I know what the major ones were, but I suspect there were some other ways I was making things… Continue reading Reverse reasoning for finding breakup answers
Tag: Regrets
Needing Mental Health help?
With Christmas being so near, I found it nearly impossible to talk to anyone. It’s a pretty bad feeling. But there were some places to still go. So if you are having a heavy heart and don’t know what to do, here is what I found: 7 Cups The 7 Cups website at first seemed… Continue reading Needing Mental Health help?
The sight of a happy family
At work today I saw a mom wanting to take a family picture. Before, I would have probably rolled my eyes at this. Now I feel really sad. I wanted to cry. I wish my Love would let me back into his family. They will be visiting for Christmas soon and even worse - I… Continue reading The sight of a happy family
Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
I became an emotional monster these past few days. Little did I know, it was because I was about to have a period. At 93 pounds, I really thought that was not going to happen. And talking about periods…this something I never thought I would openly mention at all, no less blog about. (I miss… Continue reading Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
This past week has been a busy one!
I spent every single day trying to find ways to improve the home. Just those little sort of things that make one a little happier when they are better. But this awful knot in my stomach, this bad feeling, this little voice keeps whispering in my head dark thoughts… Oh, please don’t drop me home… Continue reading This past week has been a busy one!
Respect versus Trust
While I was watching another fabulous Mark Rosenfeld YouTube video, he talked about how respect and trust seem to go hand-in-hand. Trust is something I have been desperately trying to reform, so this video really got my attention. He went over the proper means of communicating respect as the first point: usually communication involves talking,… Continue reading Respect versus Trust
“No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Interestingly enough, I saw it pointed out in a video that sometimes couples fight and get into more disagreements more when they do care passionately about certain matters. Basically, they are committed to sticking to the things that matter and refuse to back down on them. I should have noticed when it was happening about… Continue reading “No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Better Place – Rachel Platten
My ears seem to notice all sad music no matter where I go now. I don’t even have to hear the lyrics. I sense it immediately like a sixth sense. But while I was at Fed Ex today, I heard this one and it spoke volumes to me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvI9PuGorwI This song title is especially comforting… Continue reading Better Place – Rachel Platten
Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
I originally started this diary with the hopes to share my experiences with others. Maybe somebody else can relate with me, or maybe I can reassure somebody else that they are not alone. I do like to help others. But yes, I am here because I need help. I am struggling to be ok. But… Continue reading Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
How do you prove a change from within?
Friday was a hard day. My friend at work saw something in me ripping me apart from the inside so much, that she decided to pull me aside for a smoke break. She wanted to know what left me so at unease and outright asked me. I told her that I didn't feel like anyone… Continue reading How do you prove a change from within?
Sango and Miroku 