Something that I keep worrying about is how I keep being given tiny clues as to what went wrong to cause the separation and they keep piling up as slightly new different ones each time. Obviously I know what the major ones were, but I suspect there were some other ways I was making things… Continue reading Reverse reasoning for finding breakup answers
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Inuyasha Ep. 20-21 – taking care of my own attractiveness
This next chapter in the marriage course is a tough one for me. I think it is perhaps my greatest weakness. I have to work on becoming more attractive. I have blogged about this one repeatedly. I keep getting told to do it by literally everyone: take care of myself. “Lie down! Sleep! Rest! How… Continue reading Inuyasha Ep. 20-21 – taking care of my own attractiveness
Deaf ears in the breakup
Asking why? They don't know either. You can't get the truth. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqAEi9PbEAA&app=desktop And silence? WHY WHY WHY? Why is love not enough? "Happiness is the answer." There is also trust. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_8-SeZrqHM&app=desktop
How is your ex feeling? More homework!
Self-reflection can involve trying to figure out how the other person feels. Here are some more detailed questions: Anger: Why? What is that anger masking? What desires bubble below it? I think my Love tried to make it work for a long time, but I was always unhappy. Yeah, I know what that means- I… Continue reading How is your ex feeling? More homework!
Doing my homework! Introduction to part 3
In the next assignment I am asked to finally go and drown myself instead. No, just kidding. But I do have to accept that I get rid of the old me and kill her off. I have been again ahead of the game and saw this one coming, but this is the time to really… Continue reading Doing my homework! Introduction to part 3
Money does have more value when you spend it for the right reasons
As I ate a sandwich at work today…I thought about my Love. How he taught me how to handle my knife and fork, as I eat. How he thought it was cute how I’d get food on my face by accident sometimes. The bread had a nice crunch to it, and it made me think… Continue reading Money does have more value when you spend it for the right reasons
Because you’re a crazy person right now
Somebody said that about me. Well, not directly, but it still applies. I talked with a therapist today about myself. Thank goodness for Maven Clinic! It’s a women-only resource for women to be able to see doctors. (I only knew about it by accident as an online user tester.) I wish I could spread the… Continue reading Because you’re a crazy person right now
Heartbroken over what-if
Outside were two fire trucks, and ambulance, sirens going off, and children screaming. And all I’m doing is sitting sadly with my cheesecake (that is already completely gone now), chewing slowly. If I actually lived in this apartment complex, this would be terrifying. But I don’t, so I feel numb instead. The memory of the… Continue reading Heartbroken over what-if
Learn to love yourself?
The words still ring through my ears and hurt like acid on the eyes: my Love has told me before that he wants me to love myself first (or maybe more, or something like that) before I can have his love. I find this to be a very difficult idea. How can I do that… Continue reading Learn to love yourself?
Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
I have been trying really hard to be low maintenance. I insist that I do not need to have the car, so that my Love can be as free as he likes. I don’t think I am letting him walk all over me for it. I am being nice about it. Since we are living… Continue reading Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
Sango and Miroku 