You shut your mouth How can you say I go about things the wrong way? I am human and I need to be loved Just like everybody else does Some people cut themselves when they are depressed, but I choose to not sleep. It is kind of hysterical how little sleep I get any more.… Continue reading I don’t sleep enough anymore
Category: Regrets
I don’t have much in my life, but take it – it’s yours
Gasping but still alive
I look from where I stand and see deep water below
Being alone
I know what it’s like to be alone. I have a history of isolating myself. I lived alone for many years. And to the people who are hurting out there for that reason of suffering while alone, I am sorry. I am the kind who wants to reach out and help. I feel your pain… Continue reading Being alone
Pro-suicide thoughts
When it’s rooted in depression “Depression rots you on the inside, till you forget who you are, it makes life dry and lifeless, you feel numb, worst of all you lose your purpose, your drive and hope.” This is exactly how it feels right now. And yes, the brain really does shrink. And I increasingly… Continue reading Pro-suicide thoughts
40 reasons why I don’t have a problem with suicide
I wrote this as a response to a post that I found online, giving reasons to live instead of commit suicide. Interestingly, suicide is technically not illegal in the US, but in certain states it can be tricky business if known. Suicide is a very adult subject in my mind. I am really sad that… Continue reading 40 reasons why I don’t have a problem with suicide
Reverse reasoning for finding breakup answers
Something that I keep worrying about is how I keep being given tiny clues as to what went wrong to cause the separation and they keep piling up as slightly new different ones each time. Obviously I know what the major ones were, but I suspect there were some other ways I was making things… Continue reading Reverse reasoning for finding breakup answers
The lie, and a lonely existence
I moved into a new airbnb. This endless horrible existence is the worst. Yet when I tell my Love I am moving, I pretend everything is great, and so on... The reaction? Concern for me. Ok, I feel his care to again be told with concern that I again have more male roommates, but sadly, I… Continue reading The lie, and a lonely existence
Everlasting Love
The last time I thought about everlasting love involved being very sad, but today I decided to write down some motivating words that I heard in a video. I think they really summarize what I am thinking when I try so hard and refuse to let go of my Love. “Hopefully you continue to fight… Continue reading Everlasting Love
Sango and Miroku 