As I ate a sandwich at work today…I thought about my Love. How he taught me how to handle my knife and fork, as I eat. How he thought it was cute how I’d get food on my face by accident sometimes. The bread had a nice crunch to it, and it made me think… Continue reading Money does have more value when you spend it for the right reasons
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Because you’re a crazy person right now
Somebody said that about me. Well, not directly, but it still applies. I talked with a therapist today about myself. Thank goodness for Maven Clinic! It’s a women-only resource for women to be able to see doctors. (I only knew about it by accident as an online user tester.) I wish I could spread the… Continue reading Because you’re a crazy person right now
Heartbroken over what-if
Outside were two fire trucks, and ambulance, sirens going off, and children screaming. And all I’m doing is sitting sadly with my cheesecake (that is already completely gone now), chewing slowly. If I actually lived in this apartment complex, this would be terrifying. But I don’t, so I feel numb instead. The memory of the… Continue reading Heartbroken over what-if
Can you HEAR me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2e1VtTkuZEw I have been guilty of listening to this very beautiful, but sad song WAY TOO MUCH. But it was after about listen #30 of hearing this song, that I realized a very interesting twist. Sometimes the female singer says, "Can you HEAR me" instead of "Can you HEAL me". She also repeats this… Continue reading Can you HEAR me
Learn to love yourself?
The words still ring through my ears and hurt like acid on the eyes: my Love has told me before that he wants me to love myself first (or maybe more, or something like that) before I can have his love. I find this to be a very difficult idea. How can I do that… Continue reading Learn to love yourself?
Rules for…fair fighting?
https://youtu.be/t2bZTePuHb0 I found this video that does an excellent job defining how to demonstrate respect in a relationship. But they define it in the sense of fighting. Not quite the angle for handling a discussion that I would have expected! But interestingly enough, these principles date back to the 70’s, so rest assured, they have… Continue reading Rules for…fair fighting?
Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
I have been trying really hard to be low maintenance. I insist that I do not need to have the car, so that my Love can be as free as he likes. I don’t think I am letting him walk all over me for it. I am being nice about it. Since we are living… Continue reading Cool Girl vs. Quality Girl
I sold (almost) my entire music collection
I cannot put my finger on it, as to exactly why, but I feel like I have been hated for liking music. Sure, I normally feel like a complete nut every time I reference music into everything ever. I think it was after my Love even recently showed absolute disdain to want to share some… Continue reading I sold (almost) my entire music collection
The sight of a happy family
At work today I saw a mom wanting to take a family picture. Before, I would have probably rolled my eyes at this. Now I feel really sad. I wanted to cry. I wish my Love would let me back into his family. They will be visiting for Christmas soon and even worse - I… Continue reading The sight of a happy family
Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
I became an emotional monster these past few days. Little did I know, it was because I was about to have a period. At 93 pounds, I really thought that was not going to happen. And talking about periods…this something I never thought I would openly mention at all, no less blog about. (I miss… Continue reading Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
Sango and Miroku 