“I'll never let it hold me down I'll never let you walk through hell I would lose myself for you And don't you know that all I need Is a little bit of company and I would lose myself for you (Lose myself for you)” https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AEJY-2Ku0Q True love is about sacrifices. That is maturity. I… Continue reading And I will lose myself for you
Tag: changing
This past week has been a busy one!
I spent every single day trying to find ways to improve the home. Just those little sort of things that make one a little happier when they are better. But this awful knot in my stomach, this bad feeling, this little voice keeps whispering in my head dark thoughts… Oh, please don’t drop me home… Continue reading This past week has been a busy one!
Respect versus Trust
While I was watching another fabulous Mark Rosenfeld YouTube video, he talked about how respect and trust seem to go hand-in-hand. Trust is something I have been desperately trying to reform, so this video really got my attention. He went over the proper means of communicating respect as the first point: usually communication involves talking,… Continue reading Respect versus Trust
Better Place – Rachel Platten
My ears seem to notice all sad music no matter where I go now. I don’t even have to hear the lyrics. I sense it immediately like a sixth sense. But while I was at Fed Ex today, I heard this one and it spoke volumes to me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvI9PuGorwI This song title is especially comforting… Continue reading Better Place – Rachel Platten
Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
I originally started this diary with the hopes to share my experiences with others. Maybe somebody else can relate with me, or maybe I can reassure somebody else that they are not alone. I do like to help others. But yes, I am here because I need help. I am struggling to be ok. But… Continue reading Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
How do you prove a change from within?
Friday was a hard day. My friend at work saw something in me ripping me apart from the inside so much, that she decided to pull me aside for a smoke break. She wanted to know what left me so at unease and outright asked me. I told her that I didn't feel like anyone… Continue reading How do you prove a change from within?
The advice to smile: corny but true
Ever heard the advice to simply smile more to be happy? Sometimes that can feel near impossible to do. But I am starting to think, especially after not smiling for so long, that smiles are something that we do exclusively for others. Here's why: a smile puts someone else at ease. They see it and… Continue reading The advice to smile: corny but true
Knowing yourself vs. finding yourself
"Let the mind shut up, and the heart do the rest" I have been getting ready to give my Love a gift of an album of music created by the great "Hojo", aka Howard Jones. I think my Love has been wanting to learn more about himself, who he is, and what that means for… Continue reading Knowing yourself vs. finding yourself
“You’re a prize too”, but be grateful for that person you have
"You're a prize too". This was a concept really emphasized over and over in Mark Rosenfeld's videos. But he also emphasizes that we should treat one another in a relationship as if they might let go of you at any time. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STcL54V40nM Once in a relationship, it is easy to take the other person for… Continue reading “You’re a prize too”, but be grateful for that person you have
Looking back on conversations that didn’t go well
It’s weird how it takes time for things to sink in. And yet other things can be catalysts for immediate disaster. 2 weeks ago, I was in conversations that were so hot and so fueled with emotion, I ended up being angry and crying. Yet now I cannot even remember the slightest as to what… Continue reading Looking back on conversations that didn’t go well
Sango and Miroku 