I know what it’s like to be alone. I have a history of isolating myself. I lived alone for many years. And to the people who are hurting out there for that reason of suffering while alone, I am sorry. I am the kind who wants to reach out and help. I feel your pain… Continue reading Being alone
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The sight of a happy family
At work today I saw a mom wanting to take a family picture. Before, I would have probably rolled my eyes at this. Now I feel really sad. I wanted to cry. I wish my Love would let me back into his family. They will be visiting for Christmas soon and even worse - I… Continue reading The sight of a happy family
Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
I became an emotional monster these past few days. Little did I know, it was because I was about to have a period. At 93 pounds, I really thought that was not going to happen. And talking about periods…this something I never thought I would openly mention at all, no less blog about. (I miss… Continue reading Too skinny to be okay, yet still able to have children?
This past week has been a busy one!
I spent every single day trying to find ways to improve the home. Just those little sort of things that make one a little happier when they are better. But this awful knot in my stomach, this bad feeling, this little voice keeps whispering in my head dark thoughts… Oh, please don’t drop me home… Continue reading This past week has been a busy one!
“No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Interestingly enough, I saw it pointed out in a video that sometimes couples fight and get into more disagreements more when they do care passionately about certain matters. Basically, they are committed to sticking to the things that matter and refuse to back down on them. I should have noticed when it was happening about… Continue reading “No one will ever do or say anything, that isn’t a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves in a moment.”
Inuyasha – Episode 2!
It’s weird how I remember thinking the crows in this episode were soooo scary. Life has a way of putting things in perspective. Losing love is much worse than any beast. Though it is funny how the crows attack human hearts. It is a subtle reminder that if we lose our heart we lose ourselves.… Continue reading Inuyasha – Episode 2!
Inuyasha – Episode 1!
I guess after all this talk about the characters from Inuyasha, I decided to rewatch the show. It is hard to believe it has been 7 years since then. Having a good background of what the show is about, I easily jumped in to watch it. But by not entirely remembering the entire story, I… Continue reading Inuyasha – Episode 1!
Better Place – Rachel Platten
My ears seem to notice all sad music no matter where I go now. I don’t even have to hear the lyrics. I sense it immediately like a sixth sense. But while I was at Fed Ex today, I heard this one and it spoke volumes to me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvI9PuGorwI This song title is especially comforting… Continue reading Better Place – Rachel Platten
Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
I originally started this diary with the hopes to share my experiences with others. Maybe somebody else can relate with me, or maybe I can reassure somebody else that they are not alone. I do like to help others. But yes, I am here because I need help. I am struggling to be ok. But… Continue reading Why I write – and the butterfly with the taste for death
The Journey Begins
Since turning 35, I have had to face some harsh realities about myself as a human being. This is a diary about recovery, hopes, and dreams. Years ago, I remember my Love being very excited about this picture. Now I finally understand why. He actually never saw the series with me, but I found that… Continue reading The Journey Begins
Sango and Miroku 